No backing out now

So I just spoke with my grandma (Nana), and told her about my new plan. She's happy for me in that I have a plan that I like and is feasible. The icing on the cake, for her, is that I'll be moving so close to her. She lives in San Antonio. Austin is only about two hours away. I think she really needs me there right now. To back out of this plan would crush her. I knew this before I told her. Part of me thinks I told her, just to prevent me from backing out on yet another plan. I also emailed Dan and told him I need to talk to him about Vegas because my plans have changed. Again, I think I told him so I won't back out.

Not wanting to back out of something because of pride is one thing. Not wanting to backout because of someone else's feelings is COMPLETELY different. I think I'm subconsciously doing this so I don't have an option. And you know what, that's fine with me.